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Been an odd few days. Been keeping records in the database. It's suprisingly difficult to judge what to rate the various symptoms at on a scale of 1-10. I sometimes wonder if I am exaggerating.Last couple of days I've been getting more and more clingy, emotionally still fragile. Not collapsing into tears so often. Vision has been bad, blurry, seeing ghosts. Like having another tv channel interfering with the one you're watching. Not been very sick though, which is nice. Pain has been constant but background, except in the lower back and coccyx, which has been varying between nearly unbearable and very irritating. Skin has been hypersensitive, particularly around lower back. Have been having fits of being itchy. The lump in my face has nearly gone though. My skin has also been very dry and sometimes my face gets very very hot, as if I have sunburn. Jittery tonight, feel spaced out, fazed, feel as if someone is pulling my brain out through lots of holes in my head, like it's being extruded. Getting unnecessarily worried about the boat trip.
Looking forward to it though.
Haven't been to the gym in 4 weeks now. Intend to have a week's walking, then start up again when I get back. Quite anxious and irritable this evening. Taking things said to me the wrong way, knowing that I'm doing it but unable to sto. Infuriating. I hate it when it gets like this, I get really annoyed with myself.