Symptom Diary

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Saturday, July 29, 2000

13:14  Still having hot flushes, although have traced it to an unreasonable response to food intake and have cut down on the amount I'm eating to compensate. Head sore today, back sore. Quite shaky. Mood swings abrupt and infuriating. From happy to tearful and clingy in too short order. Motor co-ordination not too bad. Been having trouble ith severe synaesthesia episodes, where everything becomes so confused I can't even describe what is happening lucidly. I try to describe the sensations and churn out bizarre metaphors that really only make things less clear. Last few days have been marked by some very pronounced cognitive difficulties. I find myself stuck in the middle of a sentence, having forgotten completely in a split second what I was talking about and being unable to find any words to continue. For a terrifying few moments I completely forget how to speak, never mind any concept of language. The words aren't even in my head. Gym work continues to be surprisingly good, all things considered. I have been sleeping far more than I am used to - up to 6 hours without interruption - the last couple of nights. Been getting up without too much difficulty. Been sick a couple of times. Digestive system giving me the runaround.

Hot flush coming on right now. Seems to be preceded by aura - pressure in head, emotional instability.

Weight on Wednesday's gym session (the thing I couldn't remember) was 136 pounds. Yesterday it was 140. I seem to have a fluctuation of ±4 pounds, roughly. Maybe more. Keep having to remind myself to check it. Not sure whether my weight should be stable or should be increasing with the gym work.

Joints have been bad. A lot of sharp, stabbing pains accompanied by momentary total weakness. Back is still bruised, and my coccyx is still giving me a lot of problems, although has improved a bit since I have stopped spending so much time on the recumbent. I wouldn't use it at all but it is difficult not to during the gym busy periods.

13:37  I should note that the supplements I'm taking do seem to be helping with my flexibility, although my hips and knees are still very stiff.

 

Wednesday, July 26, 2000

09:54  Spent too much time unconscious on the sofa last night and am too shaky and weepy today for Marko to be happy about me going to work. Was supposed to go for a swim but couldn't. Could barely move. Feel only barely there. Vision playing up, the web came effect is quite strong. Was having visual disturbances last night - kept seeing things moving acroos the carpet and walls out of the corner of my eye. Either the living room has suddenly become infested with very active by well camouflaged spiders or my vision is playing up quite badly. Not happy about driving up there today after nearly being killed yesterday by that lorry. Feel quite sick. In a lot of pain. Crying at very little.

A non-coping day.

23:12  Went to gym despite it all. OK session. Not bad. Much better than I thought. A lot of feeling of pressure in the bladder though, which I am noticing a lot when exercising these days, a feeling of approaching incontinence, which isn't pleasant, and involves choosing a moment in between exercises to run down and use the loo. This evening I didn't really need to, but the feeling of needing to was worse than usual. Now have terribly sore head. Appetite has gone, although I still feel hungry, if you can imagine that. Memory problems, vision problems, shaking quite a lot. Had to do actual grounding exercises to get through my session.

And there was something else too, but, true to form, I've forgotten what it was, even though I knew when I started typing the above paragraph.

 

Tuesday, July 25, 2000

19:09  Pain has been bad the last couple days. Particularly bad in my neck right now, just behind the lower jaw, below the ears. Eyes smarting. Bruises all up the spine. Vision has been jumpy, like processing isn't working properly, but also heightened, as if I am seeing every detail in a picture that is usually made up only of overall patterns. It does strange things to my head. Was sick this morning, came on suddenly, without warning, only a little, but shocking in the speed it came on. Have been jittery and hyperactive also, but also quite tired. Full of energy but mentally tired. Cramps back, could be something to do with the fairly decent gym session I had yesterday, but also could be due to the intermittent shaking and tremors. Fingers occasionally claw. For the last three days during the day I feel fazed, out of it, expansive, as if the interior of my head pipes directly into a vast empty space. In the evening I feel edgy and irritable and have little patience. I shake more in the evening.

My appetite has gone down suddenly. Weight in gym was 141 pounds. No significant change there.

Pain really rather bad right now, hips, ribs, shoulders (bad in shoulders), neck, centre of chest. Head is ok, strangely. Just a hint of a headache. Calves are sore, legs are sore. Not all of it is gym ache. I feel itchy as well.